When people tell me I am courageous to go on the way I do, I tend not to understand. I don’t feel courageous… I just try to go on, that’s it.
And then it hit me: what if what people call courage is what I call ‘trying’. I don’t give up. I almost never gave up. It’s not who I am, it’s not in my genes. I don’t think it’s really wise, but it’s the way I am.
Then I thought about what « courage » meant…
Cambridge dictionary define « courage » as » the ability to control your fear in a dangerous or difficult situation ».
Then I understood why I didn’t feel courageous. I faced my worst fear in life, and it became real and changed my whole life. Since then, I really feel fearless. I don’t take risks or anything, I just don’t feel fear anymore in my everyday life. I just… well, go on. When Emma passed, it was different. I didn’t really go on… I tried to. To honor my promise, to honor her memory, because she wouldn’t have wanted me to just give up. Because it wouldn’t have been me, the one she loved. So I tried. Some days, I just couldn’t and stayed home crying all day long. And it was fine. Some days, I could go outside and even get groceries. Some days, I didn’t xant tot talk to anyone, and other days I would be able to talk with my familly or a friend. I just kept going. I just kept trying to go on. And if people want to see it as courage, it’s fine with me. To me it’s more being faithfull to the most beautiful person I had the chance to meet and love in my life.
So here is this week’s challenge
One card a week 27
Quote: « Courage doesn’t always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says “I’ll try again tomorrow.” Mary Anne Radmacher
Here are the rules of the challenge:
- Each thursday, I’ll give you a quote and a pattern to play with. You can use both, you can use only one of them, it’s up to you.
- You have till the next wednesday to make your card and share it with us in the facebook group (just ask to be added, and I will open the doors wide open to you )
- The goal of this challenge it just to offer yourself a time to have fun with pens and cards, to ponder on words, to enjoy a ME time. We tend to forget about ourselves so easily! And sharing is such a beautiful thing to experiment in our life!
And here is my card. Shading does eveything! I love love this pattern and I sure will use it again!