So I came back home after a week on the Mediterranean sea coast. In a place Emma loved and where she spent wonderful days, full of friends, laughter and good memories. It’s the first place we went on vacations after the diagnosis, and I am sure this place increased the way we saw things then: live one day at a time, at its fullest.
When we went there last year, without her, it was painful, but also conforting. She was everywhere, we walked on her steps remembering each and every details…. Heartbreaking but necessary I think to allow us (my parents and I) to really acknowledge her absence.
This year, it was a whole different story. I didn’t miss her. I could hear her laugh, see her at the swimming pool or on the plaza, playing with her friends, a huge smile on her face. I only had to close my eyes. And it wasn’t painful. It made me smile. They only were memories of who she was, full of life and joy. Nothing to be sad about. Everything to be grateful for.
So we came back home. And this smile is still on my face. I found far more than good memories, I found the essence of her. And I brought it back to me, wondering why it took me that long.
That, the sun I watch rising every morning, the walks with my father, music perfect to go with this journey, and some online poets. This is the recipe to the remedies I took. And suddenly, everything was crystal clear, my last shackles turned into dust. It took me 3 days to calm down my inner tsunami after it wiped away all that needed to go.
I am ready for a new adventure, a smile on my face. And it will be a wonderful one, a rare one, as I bring Emma’s essence along. It will be made of words, and feelings, and life.
I have no regrets. How can I? All this put a smile on my face.
So here is your challenge:
One card a week 44
Quote: « Never regret anything that made you smile.” Mark Twain
Here are the rules of the challenge:
- Each thursday, I’ll give you a quote and a pattern to play with. You can use both, you can use only one of them, it’s up to you.
- You have till the next wednesday to make your card and share it with us in the facebook group (just ask to be added, and I will open the doors wide open to you )
- The goal of this challenge it just to offer yourself a time to have fun with pens and cards, to ponder on words, to enjoy a ME time. We tend to forget about ourselves so easily! And sharing is such a beautiful thing to experiment in our life!
And here is my card: