If there is something I learned this last year, it’s that when you loose what you thought was everything you had, you actually find the most important: yourself.
When I look at the last 15 years, I realise that everything I took for granted was taken away from me. And that I am still here. Alive. Then I took a deeeper look at what I call my life so far, from my present self. And I realised that everything, each and every choices I made, each and every decisions I took, each and every event I lived brought me here, now, to be the one I am now. It may seem simple and logical. But it goes far deeper than the obvious.
For the first time in decades, if ever, I feel myself. I live my truth. And I am in peace. I had the luck to find my self. So thinking about it, I came to the conclusion that while I thought my whole universe was upside down, while my heart was exploding with pain, while I thought I would never come back to life, I actually came to it. Not back to my old self. I just became ME. I wasn’t falling apart. I was falling into place. I looked at all the little pieces that were left after my whole former life burst, and I gathered them, putting together what is the real, bare, me.
Acceptance was the key as I probably already wrote. Accepting to step forward. Accepting to just be who I am, with my strengths and my weaknesses. Accepting to face what I had to face. Accepting to be held responsible for my choices, and furthermore, accepting to just speak my truth. By doing so, I just scealed the pieces together to make a solid core. Then I held my head high and just made one step, then another. No more fear, no more pain. I look straight, I speak freely. And I am not afraid anymore to show who I really am. Because I have nothing to loose.
So in fact, everythign wasn’t falling apart. Everything just got rid of the useless. Now my soul is at home. I feel I belong at that time, that space. Because I’m making it mine.
And it feels so good to just be free.
So here is your challenge:
One card a week 40
Quote: » Sometimes when things are falling apart they may actually be falling into place. »
Here are the rules of the challenge:
- Each thursday, I’ll give you a quote and a pattern to play with. You can use both, you can use only one of them, it’s up to you.
- You have till the next wednesday to make your card and share it with us in the facebook group (just ask to be added, and I will open the doors wide open to you )
- The goal of this challenge it just to offer yourself a time to have fun with pens and cards, to ponder on words, to enjoy a ME time. We tend to forget about ourselves so easily! And sharing is such a beautiful thing to experiment in our life!
And here is my card: